Dear family & friends …
How are you all ?? Hope fine healthy and Happy .
I didn’t feel myself writing .. to tell the truth , it’s the only way left for me to express my feeling in the way it’s goes on inside me
. I’m so glad to have you all in my life, I’ll never change any second I spend ( Good or Bad )with you all with anything in the world .I Know how much each one of you mean to me because my lungs breath your air , my eyes miss your faces , my mind thinking always about you , and my heart beats with your Love . . that’s why I want you all to know how I fell …
I know I have my Good side and bad one too, so please excuse me for the things I`m writing .
To those who bright my day with their books , don’t expect the best form me . .
I tell you I’m not complete. . God is . am I ` Good teacher ?? hell I don’t know all that I hope that I’m doing well , the best I can , even if I’m not Good . . .and when you all get upset because the grade . . . I know may be I didn’t do enough to help but it’s what I could give at that time , , also I’m asking you be genital with me or leave me when you feel I don’t do any Good for you all , , one last thing , ,
It’s up to your hard work , your effort I’m just a helper. and know that God with you ( with me or with any one else )if you are in the right way . you upset me when you start the problem about the mark but God knows I was shocked just like you . I hope that you get the full marks next time, and I hope we leave the people who suppose to be out out
To those who I see 5 days in a week , I do feel upset from myself when I get wrong in stuff I shouldn’t do it wrong the first place . . also I feel upset when I take all the blame .and be yelled in the face.
I really fell responsible for the things in my hand . . I’m doing what I can and more
I hope you all notice my effort . at least by not asking more and say ( it`s ok if you get wrong we all do ) and I’m sorry if I did something that enlarge one of your problems . . I hope I just continue what am doing with out any mistakes .till the end of the year .
To those who carry the same blood with me
I tried to get closer to you all but you shut the door in my face . if that what you want I’m ganna take it . I offer you my life , what else I can give . all I’m asking you to do is slow down on me . care more for me ,stop putting me down .and use the bad action I did against me . know that I get tired .. I really do my best trying my best for you all .
I hope you understand that I’m not a machine or a super Girl.I`m just your daughter , your sister .
To those who take my heart . . . and some how step on it with out they know
I’m just a human , I make mistakes . . . and some is unfixable . for you it’s not a mistake it’s a SIN , you said I’m still hurting you. I didn’t know. Bout the job , I didn`t know really what I`m doing is wrong. Moderatna choose you to teach the thing you like cz she knows that your Good on it .more than I do . and some how I took your place with out I feel with out I think it’s ganna hurt you , after I knew it was too late to change it cz the schedule and the way that work goes ( which I think you don’t understand it or u don’t want ) and unfortunately I was putting you in my list in the way I think it’s good for you, I was wrong , I’m not ganna move an inch next time to do something that I think it’s good for you. I don’t want any more things that appear to be wrong .I want to say If that your way in thinking I don’t want any help or support from you .my heart cant stand to feel you treat me like a seller ( take and give ) Your words make me realize how much am dumb to think that sins can be forgetting. to think that good stuff , help and support shouldn’t be paid back. And I do understand the way you feel , somehow I cant fix it . and I say now I was so patient so stupid too. I’m not willing to do something .I don’t want to feel like am don’t want to be a slave to my actions. your words make me realize that I don’t do you any good and I don’t make you feel comfortable . that am not paying back the lie I made .
Don’t say that you didn’t feel what you said you did cz you remember it ,, words are like a dagger .. it can kill in spelt second ..I do understand that cz I did it to you .
Because I love you , I’m letting you go . you don’t have anything left for me to do you are free from my side . I cant stand to work in a place am not suppose to work there . to be the person I am .
Last word . . the world full of mistakes , and all the people have a bright side if you try to find it . try to roll your mood . control your emotion even if you are in that time of the month. cz there are people in the world who don’t understand the feeling very clear .also put an eye on the place you are in . and be careful.
The life teach me that People have heart but they don’t have mercy
To you All . . .
I do understand the way things should Go . . . but I don’t understand the way people treating each other . . .
I give up trying to understand , I’m ganna start to understand me ,
with my Love …. your daughter . . sister . . teacher . . and friend
Salsa
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